This is the very boring part of eating disorders, the aftermath. When you eat and hate that you eat. And yet of course you must eat . You do not really entertain the notion of going back. You, with some startling new level of clarity , going back Realize That would be far worse than simply Being as you are. This is obvious to anyone without an eating disorder. This is not always obvious to you.
— Marya Hornbacher “Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia